this past week was the week from hell. everything that could go wrong, DID go wrong. except for two huge things. i made it on to the "varsity" choir in our high school, and we have this HUGE talent show like thing only its way better than a talent show. its like a pop concert mix thing and my group made it past the second round (there are 3). so you'd think i'd be able to overlook the billions of tiny things that went wrong and focus on the two huge things that went right, right? well, for some idiotic reason i just can seem to. maybe its the dreary weather, maybe i'm just a stupid pessimistic. either way, i've been a time bomb slowly ticking, and it only takes one tiny argument or bothersome event to set me off. and at first i thought "well, my family can just deal with my bipolar fits of lashing out." because everyone has their bad days right?
wrong.
its like in just one split second i realized that i have to just get over it! i mean, look on the brightside, right? and i can't just take out everything on everyone else, and blame them for my problems. it really is me, my fault, my problem, and i really truly need to get over it.
so, yipeeeeeee, i got past step one, but now what? how DO i fix it? how DO i get over it?
ugh. me and my childish problems.
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